I sent my big boy off into the world last week. That\u2019s what it feels like anyway. It\u2019s bittersweet really. I miss my small boy with the giant heart. He is away from me more than he is with me for the first time in our lives. We were both nervous and excited at the same time.<\/p>\n
I\u00a0love the start of the new school year\u2026 \u00a0first grade especially\u2026all the kids in clean new shoes, fresh haircuts and pigtails, missing teeth everywhere.\u00a0 Seeing the classroom all nice and neat, Isaiah was so excited to have his very own desk where he could have a picture of his family and his water bottle. He sits right in front.\u00a0 He bought lunch in the cafeteria the very first time today for Friday, pizza day. My boy who loves veggies was excited about the salad bar. \u201cJust like Souplantation but smaller,\u201d he said, and \u201cI felt like a grown up because I could reach everything and choose whatever I wanted!\u201d He even got to buy ice cream, the little cup kind with the cardboard lid and the wooden spoon. Some things never change! He showed me today at the store that he drank milk out of one of those cartons, only it was smaller with a \u00a0straw. Yesterday he brought home his Scholastic book order form and pored over it for half an hour trying to choose just three books. I remember that\u2026 reading every single description and circling the ones I really wanted. Some things never change and I\u2019m grateful for it. I\u2019m happy to share those same feelings and memories with my own children. It\u2019s a little piece of heaven right here on earth.<\/p>\n
I am scared really, and more sad that I care to admit to let my boy go. This was way harder than Kindergarten. Kindergarten was only for a few hours. Kindergarten was so \u2026 innocent. \u00a0This was the reason I had wanted to homeschool\u2026 to keep him close, to shelter him from peer pressure, from mean kids, from kids who watched shows he\u2019s never even heard of and PG movies! From the big wide world!\u00a0 But I know in my heart, my decision to send him to public school is the right one. He loves it and he will thrive there. His teacher has already told me that she can see how smart he is and how much he loves to learn. \u00a0I stayed until 11 the first day to help out\u2026maybe to help me out more than anything. I have drilled him every day asking him 500 questions about his day in the car while driving home.\u00a0 And then what did you do? Who did you sit by at snack\/lunch? Did you eat all your lunch? Who did you play with? And then what? And after that? What was the story about? Did you play with anyone new? He\u2019s starting to tire of this I know, but I can\u2019t help it. I want to know every detail. If I could only be a fly on the wall.<\/p>\n
We miss him and I\u2019m so happy to see him at pick up time. Lil misses him. Her best friend is gone most of the day now and all she has left is boring mom who is always cleaning or fixing something in the kitchen or talking to someone on the phone. I am trying to be a good friend to her, but I just can\u2019t replace her Bubba who was silly and funny and clever and sweet. But I love my time with her. Just me and her, holding hands, getting her haircut, grocery shopping. My little girl isn\u2019t so little anymore either and it breaks my heart too. \u00a0She\u2019s a kid now, and she\u2019s funny and feisty and stubborn and sticky and cute. She makes me laugh so much. She loves to sing and jump and hop. She doesn\u2019t walk at all, she only hops and skips and runs. She calls me Mimi and it melts my heart\u2026 her sweet little voice, so soft and innocent. We are going to try ballet\/tap class next week. Went and tried on ballet shoes at the store and bought a pink leotard and tutu already. Every little girl should be a ballerina once.<\/p>\n
She\u2019ll be starting preschool in a week\u2026 so I\u2019ll actually be alone for a few hours a week. My heart will be in two different places.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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