October 31st

We were talking about going to the Harvest Festival and playing games and getting candy and Isaiah said, "Candy comes from the sky." When I questioned him more he said, "Yeah, candy comes from the sky from God's golden hand." LOL

No small thing...

I was so not ready for this, although I knew it was coming. Lilianna is walking now (as of a week ago). Not that I don't ADORE this stage. It is so darn cute! I can't help but smile from ear to ear to see my little drunken angel toddling to and fro trying to keep her balance. I love to see her proud face when she stumbles over to me and collapses in my arms! I love it! But this means IT'S OVER. She's not our little baby anymore! She's a toddler in the making! So, yes I cried real tears of sorrow and regret for ever wanting her to walk... for ever wanting anything but kisses to land on her tiny untainted feet; now instead they touch the ground. Here I am a little over emotional about this. But this is my last, the last baby- the very last time I will experience such innocent delight... and this is her first... her first steps away from me. Many more are to come- the first steps to preschool, the first to kindergarten and so on until hopefully one day... down the aisle with Daddy by her side. Children are for letting go into the world. I know this... and even though baby humans have the longest gestation into adulthood... right now I feel like it's too short.

Today I am grateful that my kids still need me and they still want me. As mundane as being mommy can seem -the messy house, the sink full of dishes, the disciplining, the tantrums, schedules, boo-boos, and the never ending laundry... I get paid so much better than all the riches in the world. I get wet kisses, warm hugs, genuine I love you's, endearing "MA-MA"s, and a house full of joy. Chaos, but joy! I couldn't even dream of anything better.

“It is no small thing when they, who are so fresh from God, love us.” Charles Dickens

What did you learn at Church today?

We have finally found a home church. After years of excuses and missing our old church we've settled into North Coast Calvary in Carlsbad. We are liking it a lot so far and Isaiah seems to really like it too. Yesterday as we were leaving he asked, "What did you learn in Church today Mommy and Daddy?" So we told him that we learned that Jesus loves us and is proud of us- because of who we are not what we do. So then we asked him what he learned in church today and he said, "Play-doh." I love it! We were thinking he was going to say something profound in true Isaiah fashion like- "Jesus wants us to forgive" but instead he said, "Play-doh" with a huge cheesy smile on his face.

When we went to pick up Lily she was happily playing in the lap of the caretaker. Until she saw us. Suddenly she was overcome with emotion and she stared crying real tears and leaning toward us with all her might. We couldn't help but laugh because it was so precious and sweet. Such raw emotion coming out of our little Tink all at once! We nicknamed her Tink because can be a tiny mean little sprite just like Tinkerbelle at times. Still, you can't help but love her!